After months (actually, years) of planning, prayer and perspiration we launched LifePoint on the 11th January 2015.
Now, if you know me, you will know that I love to plan and have a very clear idea of how things should look, sound, and feel in my mind. I had it all sorted. The team had it all sorted. And I trusted that above all God had it all sorted!
And I waited with excitement and nerves energetically dancing around with each other.
Slowly, people came (phew!!) - and I am truly thankful to those that turned up to support us for our first service.
With absolute wonder at the faithfulness of God, who dropped this church in our hearts and minds years ago, the sound of the first 'Welcome to LifePoint' filled the hall. Wow. Awesome. It has happened! Thank you Jesus!
And so, onwards and upwards from here, right? We had been faithful to God's call to plant this church, facing many struggles and hurts and difficulties along the way, surely this would now be a blessed adventure?! A reward for our battle!
But ... as the service went on, the sense of excitement lessened as disappointment gathered momentum. I checked the 'LifePoint' area of my mind - but this looked different. This sounded different. This felt different. What was going on? Why was it all going wrong?
The high hopes, the expectations, the adrenalin ... crashed. I felt a failure. I felt I had let people down. Most importantly, I felt I had let God down. It hadn't been the perfect service I had wanted to give him for his glory.
With such a heavy heart, I drove home.
And then, one by one, in different forms, the messages came.
The messages of excitement. The messages of belonging. The messages of hope. The messages of enjoyment. The messages of wonder. The messages of thankfulness. The messages of God speaking into broken lives.
And there I learnt, despite how I felt it went, God was still there, God still spoke, and God still touched lives. God worked through the imperfect.
Wow. My disappointment evaporated and my heart began to rejoice.
My perfect God doesn't need perfection.
People don't need perfection.
This is real life, a life that encompasses mess, confusion, hurt, anger, pain ... sin.
And this is real life, life that God loves to speak into, with ALL it's imperfections, to love, to forgive, to bless, and to transform. The imperfect that will one day become perfect in Him.
God, take the imperfect, that's all we have, and use it to show your perfect love to others.